So much to do

today my brain feels like it wants to jump out of my eye socket. Is my body really that bad of a place to live that all of my organs are trying to jump ship?

in other news...

adam may have been offered a job working for guardian air in Alaska as a paramedic.

Hmmm hmmm... yes, I did really just write that. It has still not soaked into my brain, and looks really funny in writing, but it is a real possibility that we are talking about in the five minutes before we fall asleep when he holds me with his "cast" arm and I have my heating pad on my tummy and we finally get a few minutes to ourselves to talk. Not very much time for thinking about things that are so serious, but then again, it is almost dream time, so I like to think that we both dream about it sufficiently and thus if it is meant to be it will happen. Today I think I will look at the weather forecast and search for houses to rent. did i mention that he would make almost three times per month what he makes here??? And that he can put his job and retirement and benefits and everything here on "hold" for up to three years???

ALASKA!!! FREAKING ALASKA!!!!

Okay, next story...

I am sewing up a storm, and just finished the cutest bag I have ever made. i think i might get a little bit too attached to each of my sewing projects. i sit down there in my sewing room, finally able to relax and think, and i create these artful purses. I LOVE IT. it is so peaceful and fulfilling to me. Lara is the lucky girl who will get this one. (I will post a pic on my purse site later today) I think I will make this bag bigger and put bottle holders and a large diaper zipper on the backside. It is the PERFECT diaper bag!!!

My love adam is so tired today. he is asleep behind me right now in our bed. We have so much to do today. i am in charge of the volunteers and sponsors for the provo triathlon (three days before my surgery) and I was offered a really neat opportunity to sell my diaper bags to some nationwide boutiques. (THANKS KICKER!!!!) so I have been feeling pretty productive, but still have that haunting feeling that i haven't done enough... hate that feeling! sheesh!

we need to get adam a full cast today and fill out a boat load of workers comp papers and sick leave papers for his work. Did i mention that i am so grateful to have him home??? I need to get the insurance on his motorcycle finalized today and get them a picture of the bike. We need a new insurance co but i am afraid of switching right now since I filed BK, and I don't know if they will check our credit when we change and give us a really crappy policy. know any good insurance co's? We have our house and two cars and a motorcycle to insure. Anywho... I am rambling on now, maybe I will use this post as my to do list later today. that might just work. see, i am a multi-tasker now! We desperately need to help adams dad finish his bathroom project and i have a list a mile long of things that both he and i need to sell on KSL, just need to post them. ;)

NICK IF YOU ARE READING THIS THEN GET OFF YOUR BUTT AND FIX YOUR FRONT DOOR KNOB ASAP... I WILL GIVE YOU HELL WHEN I SEE YOU NEXT ;)
(Nick is Adams dad... he loves the heck outta me, even though i harass the heck outta him. i guess he is really MY DAD... wow that is a funny thing for me to say. My Dad... i like the sound of that! :)

What else, what else... hmm pay the mortgage, make sure the subaru payment was made, get groceries, check on my bike at sbr, dream about being skinny again and working out, cancel my 24 hr fitness membership before they start auto drafting my bank account in july, drink water, dream about being skinny again, show love to Adam and Tristan, see if anyone needs a hand or a shoulder or a hug today, check on my sick friends, call my brother and sis in law in NY, tell my little sister I love her, call my grandparents with dementia (again) and remind them that i love them a lot, i only missed grandpas birthday because i had surgery that day, i had a baby in july, i love them, i am missing the family reunion because of another surgery, i love them, i am not mad at them, i didn't want to miss grandpas birthday I HAD TO...(dementia is a hard one...) tell my mom i am proud of her, call jedd and brook and make plans to play with puppies, call brady and allison and keep brady positive even though he wrecked craigs jeep, make plans with my long lost emily and milo, and finally...

clean my house??? maybe not today.

thank you for indulging me ;)

love,
lynsie