I wish I never knew what vertigo meant...
it is evil...
I promise I am still alive, and being happy and positive over here.
but right now, I have vertigo, migraines, and seizures...
seizures...
My options are running thin.
I don't want a full hysterectomy at 26.
I don't want to play roulette with different birth control pills for years and years.
I feel so ALL OVER THE PLACE emotionally.
Plus, we already met our out of pocket maximum for the insurance year (which ends in July, so NO RUSH OR ANYTHING)
I love Adam so much, he held me in his arms last night and reassured me that he wants me NO MATTER WHAT, even if I am broken, even if I am crazy, even if I am mean, even if I am BARREN, even if I am menopausal.
This helps. Because, I must admit that I have thought maybe he would be better off without all of my messes...
He pretty much shook me until I understood that life without me here would NOT be acceptable, and he is willing to be here with me NO MATTER WHAT, through thick and thin, for TIME AND ALL ETERNITY.
I love him so much.
So, I have made my mind up, I am definitely NOT going anywhere!!!
But, I still don't know what to do with my endo...
Back to the knees? Sounds like a plan. I love prayer, you can NEVER mess up a prayer.
Love,
Lynsie
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I've never had full on vertigo, but I've had it before, and it's horrible! Hang in there!
My husband gets labryinitis (sp?) from time to time, it's an inner ear problem that causes nausea, severe dizziness, almost to the point you have to stay in bed. It happens when he hasn't gotten enough sleep and/or taken care of himself...like mother nature's pay back.
Hope whatever it is, you figure it out. Fingers crossed over here! And if it helps, treat yourself to some chocolate...
Ugh, I'm so sorry! Decisions like these are the hardest kind to make. I know it doesn't go both ways, but what if your husband was having all of these symptoms? What would you want him to do? Sometimes I don't want to make decisions for myself, but if I think about how it could be affecting others, I can make the decision better. Good luck dear!
vertigo? I do not know what this means. But I love you Lynsie... and seizures?! Are you OK?!!!!! AAAHHHH!!! I feel like I should come over to your house RIGHT NOW!
Lynsie!!!I feel horrible for you!! Is there anything I can do for you???
I LOVE YOU GUYS.... I was having a really "off day" yesterday. Today I feel better. Adam gave me a blessing. I know I am going to be okay and make the right choices and all that jazz, I guess it was just my turn to have an off day. It is so nice to know that I have so many people who care and want to help me. Thank you so much!!!
Sounds like you have a really wonderful man. Don't mess it up by thinking that you are too much trouble. I'm sure he doesn't think so. And prayer works. Even when you don't get the answer you want.
Take care, and you are in my prayers.
:~D
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