Tristan has this new thing he has been doing. At first it freaked me out. I thought he was blind, or having a hard time seeing things. He keeps holding objects right up next to his eyes, like pressed against his nose. He especially likes doing this with bright flashy things or mirrors. It is kinda strange but 100% adorable. Adam got home from work today and saw it for the first time. He laughed.....mainly at me for thinking he was blind. Adam says Tristan is just looking closely.
Oh yeah, yesterday Tristan fell off our bed. It was a tragedy. I was heartbroken. I felt like the most horrible person on the planet. He was of course just fine but that didn't stop him from crying like he was in agony. I cried. Hard. I called Adam at work to tell him and see what I should check on Tristan. Adam gave me the paramedic run down but there was something weird about the way he did it......it seemed like he was MAD at ME. He spoke in one word sentences and very cold and distant. I was horrified. I hung up and cried even harder than Tristan. I got him and I both calmed down and said a little prayer. It did feel like it was my fault, I mean of course it was my fault, but why would Adam be mad at me about it. I was so confused. I stewed about it for hours. Eventually I ended up mad. MAD at HIM. I sent a three page text message. It felt horrible and rotten even though I wasn't mean in what I wrote, just really raunchy. He immediately called me back. I didn't answer. I waited an hour before I even checked the voicemail. WOW. He was apologizing and so sincere. He explained that the chief of the entire Fire Department was there and he was trying to keep it together because he was so worried about Tristan and I and trying to get home as fast as he could to fix us and help us. He was so sincere, and I had spent half of my day mad at him. It was a real eye opener for me. I guess sometimes when you feel guilty about something you actually punish yourself much more than anyone else does. I am so lucky to have Adam. Next time, I just need to look a little closer. ;)
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This was the first time? Man I am a bad mom. Milo has fallen off the bed or couch probably half a dozen times. One time I was sitting on the couch right next to him and he fell off!? Don't beat yourself up to much, they are pretty tough. Oh and the other day Milo fell out of his crib. I still have no idea how that one happened.
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